Take This Into Consideration

My creativity hasn't been spot on lately. It's hard when you feel like you have to prove so much to so many people. People who fill those nasty doubts in your head, the ones who make you feel like you're never going to accomplish anything.

Every day, I sit in front of my laptop and work on my novel. Sometimes I have really great days where I accomplish quite a bit. Then, there are days when I don't do so great and not a lot gets written. It's not about how much you produce, it's about the quality, right?

I like to think so.

I've mentioned this before, but this is still really bugging me. The whole "why are you doing this?" "Why write a novel?" My response is "Why not?" I don't see how what I'm doing is so different from everyone else. Sure, it's not an easy thing to achieve but isn't that what makes it so special? I can make a difference in someone's life. It's not a shallow or selfish product for me. Sure, I'm doing what I want to do, but it's not really for my own benefit. And that's what really matters.

I know that people are still going to question me and not even try to understand what I'm doing. I'll put up with it. One day, they will see why this means so much to me. Maybe they will understand then that it's a good thing I wasn't doing what everyone else was. I'm not wasting my time doing something trivial and stupid.

A little support every now and then would be nice though.