Breaking

Lately, I haven't made much progress and it's frustrating me. I'm not exactly sure what's going on. All I know is that I'm just not feeling like myself right now.

I looked back at previous writing I've done for school and such. I hate to admit that it all sounds a hell of a lot better than what my novel sounds at the moment.  It's been a constant struggle to produce what I have so far. A struggle between myself and my own self-doubts. Hell, it's been a fight with the people who bring me down every day. The ones who don't believe in me. The ones who don't understand.

Is it too much to ask for someone to believe in me?

I would never vocally ask for that. Maybe my own pride gets in the way. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone.

Writing is a dream of mine and I would never give that up. I'm just breaking down here. I'm going through a lot and that has caused my writing to suffer a great deal. I just want to know that it's not all for nothing. I need to make myself believe that it may not be some superficial trend that everyone is into these days, but it is worth the struggle. What I'm doing is interesting and worthy. Nobody should take that away from me.

Sometimes, though, it's really hard to hold onto. That's all I'm saying.

I'm sure mostly everyone has gone through some pretty dark days. This is one of mine. Well, many of them anyways. I usually don't let people see them. Again, I don't want to burden anyone with my own problems when they probably have their own. I get through them.

Maybe I should focus on something different, writing wise. I need to clear my head and try to get things back to the way they used to be. It's just hard sometimes.