Aspire

Sometimes I just don't understand the lack of interest. What I'm doing and the purpose of this blog isn't something some people really understand anyways. I get that. I'm okay with that.

In my life, I have always had to struggle to achieve things. I know what it's like to have to push myself to the end result of my goal. Accomplishing my dream as a writer is definitely no different. In fact, it's the clearest example in my life when it comes to having to do this on my own.

My goal for this blog isn't really for myself. It's to help others realize their own potential; to really push themselves to see the end result of their own goals and dreams.

I want people to aspire to be better. Not just for themselves but for everyone around them. It's a selfish thing to only do things just for yourself. Don't be concerned how others may perceive you. Who cares what they think? It shouldn't be what you look like on the outside that matters. It's how you are in the inside that should matter. Everyone should think like that. Do they? No. Not at all.

I want what I'm doing to matter in the world. I want to help aspire people to stand up and achieve things. Life is too short for trivial/materialistic ways of thinking.

One day, people will realize what I've been doing is important. Then, maybe, it will spark interest. People will aspire to be better. You'll see that one day this wasn't all for my own sake. My writing isn't for me.

Take a moment and think about what you truly aspire to be. Don't be afraid to discuss it with people. You can discuss it with me if you want. I don't mind at all. I want to help people realize their own potential and dreams.

How I Find Inspiration (And Take Care of Writer's Block)

I was finally able to write again today. It's refreshing to be able to get over writer's block when it always seems to stand in your way.

Let me share a few tips with you in case you lose inspiration and writer's block gets in the way of your writing. I usually do these things in order to get over the frustration.

1. Journal about anything. It doesn't matter if it makes any sense at all. Just free-write thoughts on paper, no matter how silly they may seem. At the end of it, you might be able to find ideas that spark some inspiration.

2. Listen to music. I always find music to be very inspiring. It also can soothe your frustrations and put you in a calming mood.

3. Write a poem. Poetry helps put you in a creative mind set. Make the poems more challenging each time so you can stretch your imagination.

4. Go outside. When the weather is nice, I enjoy sitting outside, either writing or reading a book. Sunshine helps better my mood and sparks creativity for me. Of course, this only pertains if weather is permitting.

5. Make sure you are in a quiet environment. Distractions do not help erase writer's block. The imagination can flourish if you can go into a peaceful setting and let your mind wander.

Inspiration is always needed in order to progress your writing. Once that goes away, you can encounter a horrible case of writer's block which is something no writer needs. Don't be afraid to set your own boundaries in your writing. Write for yourself and make sure it'll be something you can be proud of. Leave your frustrations at the door and just write!

They Have Support Groups For Everything....

I need a writer's support group. Something that helps guide me and keep me focused towards my goal. I can't find one though. Frustration is not my friend. Henry, my writer's block, is definitely not my friend.

Someone hand me something to break through this brick wall standing in my way. Please?

Reflection

It's been almost a year since I graduated college with a bachelors degree in English. Even  though I wasn't able to technically go out into the "real world", I've learned about a lot of things. About how the world works, how people change, how I've changed, and life in general.

Even though I'm constantly plagued with that nagging self-doubt I have, I've discovered a dream I buried deep. It's a constant struggle to prove myself when there is so much disbelief around me, but I'm trying. I know more about myself than I ever have. That's quite a powerful thing. Yes, I have changed. Quite a bit actually. To be honest, I'm quite content with the person I am now. The person I was when I was in high school was not a happy person. I was miserable because I felt like I had to conform to whoever they wanted me to be. Either way, I was miserable, I guess.

By the time I graduated college, I changed who I really wanted to be. I make no apologies for what I want to do. I'm not going to let anyone walk all over me any longer. If you don't like me, then that's your problem. Take it or leave it. 

I also rediscovered my passion for writing again in college. One day, people will notice my talents. If I change a few misconceptions about people and life, then I've done what I set out to do. It's not a selfish act. It's not some trendy thing. You can take that or leave it as well.

So, watch out for what I can do. You're going to be pleasantly surprised once you see it. Once you experience it. 

Breaking

Lately, I haven't made much progress and it's frustrating me. I'm not exactly sure what's going on. All I know is that I'm just not feeling like myself right now.

I looked back at previous writing I've done for school and such. I hate to admit that it all sounds a hell of a lot better than what my novel sounds at the moment.  It's been a constant struggle to produce what I have so far. A struggle between myself and my own self-doubts. Hell, it's been a fight with the people who bring me down every day. The ones who don't believe in me. The ones who don't understand.

Is it too much to ask for someone to believe in me?

I would never vocally ask for that. Maybe my own pride gets in the way. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone.

Writing is a dream of mine and I would never give that up. I'm just breaking down here. I'm going through a lot and that has caused my writing to suffer a great deal. I just want to know that it's not all for nothing. I need to make myself believe that it may not be some superficial trend that everyone is into these days, but it is worth the struggle. What I'm doing is interesting and worthy. Nobody should take that away from me.

Sometimes, though, it's really hard to hold onto. That's all I'm saying.

I'm sure mostly everyone has gone through some pretty dark days. This is one of mine. Well, many of them anyways. I usually don't let people see them. Again, I don't want to burden anyone with my own problems when they probably have their own. I get through them.

Maybe I should focus on something different, writing wise. I need to clear my head and try to get things back to the way they used to be. It's just hard sometimes.

Moving Forward

I've been away for awhile without internet. Last week was really rough. I didn't do much writing nor did I really even think about writing. I know what the main problem is. My own self doubts plague my mind sometimes. Okay, most of the time. I really believe that it's hard to be able to work on something in an environment that doesn't produce creativity. But, I'm going to do my best and continue to strive towards my goals.

The main thing I need to keep in mind is that I can do this. It is possible to achieve this and it isn't a stupid, waste of time like others say. I do have talent. I just need to let go of all the doubt I'm feeling, the doubt that is holding me back. Once I do that, I'll be ready to work.

It'll happen.

Tomorrow begins a new day with a new attitude. I'm going to move past all the drama that's been going on around me and push forward to my goals. It's time for me to be selfish and do something that makes me happy for once.

Warm Weather

I love spring time. There's just something about warm weather and sunshine that makes me so productive. These past couple of days, I opened the curtains on my bedroom window and sat on my bed with my laptop. I finished chapter 12 and 13 with the sun shining outside. It was great. If I did find myself stuck on something, I just stopped and looked out the window for awhile. What can I say, I'm a day dreamer.

I spend my days helping out around the house and working on this novel. Sometimes, this may just be thinking about how the characters or the plot is going or doing research. Then, I may get lucky and be able to write a few chapters.  I know that one day, I'll get it finished and once I do, I can send it out to agents and get published. I keep that goal always in my mind.

While I'm doing that, I keep looking for jobs. It's a never ending process these days. But I'll keep hoping one will come along soon. Very soon.