Destination Unknown

I haven't posted in awhile. I apologize for that. Blame it on depression, irritability, stress..whatever. I just know that I'm tired and annoyed most of the time.

The interview at the bank was a bust. I prepared myself the night before... picked out a very conservative outfit consisting of a button down dress shirt (long sleeved to hide the tattoo on my forearm) and black dress pants. I toned down the usual dark eye make up I wear and I didn't even wear eyeliner. Now if you know me, you'll know I usually don't leave the house without black eyeliner on. Ever. But I did for this interview, thinking it would help. When I got to the bank, I had to wait like forty minutes before the lady came out to see me. She took me back to her office and basically asked me what knowledge I had in certain computer programs.. I told her what programs I was familiar with. Obviously my experience with Excel and such wasn't enough. She asked if I had any questions and I asked what the job entailed thinking I was applying for the secretarial job that was advertised in the paper.

I was wrong. She said it was for some loan agent job. If that was what the job was for, then why the hell didn't you put that in the paper? I kept my mouth shut as she said: "I wanted to call you in and see if you had more experience than you put in your resume but you don't so....." I really wanted to punch her at that moment but I didn't since I was in a bank and that probably wasn't a smart idea. Eh. I just nodded said thank you, and left. If I had that kind of experience, I would have put in my resume. And don't advertise for a job and have it be something completely different. I felt like an ass. Thanks. I appreciate that.

So yeah. I'm not doing well. Trying to keep my composure but I'm getting frustrated. I don't have experience doing things because nobody wants to give me a chance to get that experience. Give me a break. Something.

I hate this place. If I had the money, I would move far away. I wish I had the money... I wish so bad that I could just leave and find a better place where I can get a job I want to do.