New Poem

Here is the poem that I wrote the other day.

Hello Loneliness

Your body disappears like a wisp of smoke
Through my fiercely clenched hands.
Turned so white at the knuckle.
Desperate and confused,
My heart pounds faster as I watch
It all evaporate into nothing.
All the memories and laughter,
The many tears and the anger.
Nothing will ever bring you back
There are no words I could express
No tears that I could cry.
I would give the world to see you once more.
To see your bright smile,
Your smiling joyful eyes.
But there is nothing I could say.
Except for goodbye to you.
And hello to loneliness.

It's still a pretty rough version but this is the jest of it. Concerning my novel, I still haven't really written anything on it but I have done some editing. And I have thought about scenes. Hopefully, tomorrow, I can get my brain around to writing on it. We shall see.

One of These Days

I didn't get any writing done on the novel today. Still feel kinda crappy and worn out from being sick last week. But I did manage to write a poem today. It kinda came out of the blue. Gotta love moments like that. I'll try and post it tomorrow once I polish it up.

Yesterday, I also managed to work on a bit of the screenplay. It surprised me that I even opened the document, much less felt like working on it. This screenplay has left me feeling so hopeless and confused on so many occasions but I'm not giving up on it. It's like my baby.

So I guess I was more productive on certain things than I thought.

Under the Weather....Again.

Come to find out, being really sick doesn't lead to much productivity either. I've been feeling under the weather for the past two days so writing hasn't really been on my mind. Sleeping and getting better have. Lots and lots of sleeping.

Maybe I'll feel better enough tomorrow to dive back into my novel. I was getting to a good part...

The Remedy

Novel progress: I managed 2 pages today. I shut myself in my room, got as comfortable as I could and started to type. There were a few moments when I stopped and thought about what people would think about this part or that part. Then, I realized that that is what is holding me back. What people might think... who really cares? Yeah, some people are not going to like it but I'm hoping that there will be people who do like it. They might love it. They might feel the circumstances and the issues that my characters are going through because they might be going through the same thing. Maybe this novel will speak to someone so much that they figure out their own lives. And that is what should matter. Being able to speak to someone.

That's what is going to keep me going. My love for this and my desire make an impact in someone's life. I know I have read books that have made me think differently about certain things.

Now off to make more progress. :)

Snowed In

I have lost count how many people have told me that snow days lead to such productivity. Really? Well, let's see here, snow is falling outside my window as I type this and has been since early this morning. Let me check my progress for the day on this novel. Hmm.. not seeing the productivity here.

I guess it just depends on who the person is and the situation they are in. Am I stressed? You bet. Do I feel like I'm in an environment that oozes of creativity? Definitely not. Far from it, my friends.

My guess is that if I were not living at home with the family, I would have gotten a lot more accomplished writing wise. Snow days here just mean everyone is stuck in the house and bitching at each other. I don't know how many times my mom came into my room today to either ask me to do something or tell me some story.

I would love to be living in a place where I could just write without any interruptions. Or be able to go to a place that truly inspires creativity. But, at the moment, I'm not there. So, I have to deal.

Now, that mostly everyone has went to bed (my mom likes to go to bed early on her days off), I plan on getting more done. Almost finished with chapter six. 27 pages. I guess that's an accomplishment so far, right?

I Make a Music Playlist For All of My Writing Projects

I guess you could say music is my muse nowadays..

The Writing Mood Playlist: (it's a long list)

Run --Benton Paul
The End --Silverstein
Mad World --Adam Lambert
Weightless --All Time Low
Only Ones Who Know --Arctic Monkeys
Sidewalks (Acoustic) --Story of the Year
Lullaby --The Spill Canvas
Konstantine --Something Corporate
I Want To Save You --Something Corporate
Apologize --Silverstein
Discovering The Waterfront --Silverstein
True Romance --Silverstein
My Heroine (Acoustic) --Silverstein
Call It Karma (Acoustic) --Silverstein
Hero Of War --Rise Against
Your Guardian Angel --The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Karma Police --Radiohead
The Balcony Scene --Pierce The Veil
Yeah Boy and Doll Face --Pierce The Veil
Northern Downpour --Panic At the Disco
Optimist (We Are Not For Them) --P.O.S.
Fireflies --Owl City
More Than Conquerors --Ocean Is Theory
Wonderwall --Oasis
Always Love --Nada Surf
Drive --Incubus
Comfortably Confused --I See Stars
Flightless Bird. American Mouth --Iron & Wine
Bruised --Jack's Mannequin
Rescued --Jack's Mannequin
21 Guns --Green Day
Are We The Waiting --Green Day
Love Me Tender --Elvis Presley
Title and Registration --Deathcab for Cutie
If It Means A Lot to You --A Day To Remember
If Not For My Glasses --Dear & The Headlights
Viva La Vida --Coldplay
The Scientist --Coldplay
Couldn't Let You Love Me --Closure In Moscow
I'm A Ghost Of Twilight --Closure In Moscow
Intensity In Ten Cities --Chiodos
A Letter From Janelle (Acoustic)--Chiodos
Lexington. (Joey Pea-Pot With A Monkey Face)--Chiodos
Life Is A Perception Of Your Own Reality --Chiodos
Diamonds --Breathe Carolina
Classified --Breathe Carolina
The Birds And The Bees --Breathe Carolina
No Vacancy --Breathe Carolina
Welcome To Savannah --Breathe Carolina
Hello Fascination --Breathe Carolina
Love Drunk --Boys Like Girls
Holiday --Boys Like Girls
There Is --Boxcar Racer
Let It Be --The Beatles
While My Guitar Gently Weeps --The Beatles
Hey Jude --The Beatles
Blackbird --The Beatles
Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da --The Beatles
Dear Prudence --The Beatles
The Remedy --Jason Mraz
The Middle --Jimmy Eat World
23 --Jimmy Eat World
The Heart Of Life --John Mayer
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room --John Mayer
In Repair --John Mayer
Free Fallin' (Live) --John Mayer
Lenny/Man On The Side --John Mayer
Goody, Like Two Shoes --Matchbook Romance
Singing Bridges (We All Fall) --Matchbook Romance
Say It Like You Mean It --Matchbook Romance
Anywhere But Here --Mayday Parade
Get Up --Mayday Parade
I Swear This Time I Mean It --Mayday Parade
Miserable At Best --Mayday Parade
You Be the Anchor..... --Mayday Parade
Everything is Alright --Motion City Soundtrack
Sink Into Me --Taking Back Sunday
Where My Mouth Is --Taking Back Sunday
Everything Must Go --Taking Back Sunday
New American Classic --Taking Back Sunday
…Slowdance On The Inside --Taking Back Sunday
Experimental Film --They Might Be Giants
Missing You --Tyler Hilton
When It Comes --Tyler Hilton
The Letter Song --Tyler Hilton
A Fault Line. A Fault of Mine --Underoath
Desolute Earth:: The End is Near --Underoath
The Space Between --Valencia
Island in the Sun --Weezer
Buddy Holly --Weezer
Battle Royale --The Word Alive
A Beautiful Lie --30 Seconds To Mars
The Kill --30 Seconds To Mars
Savior --30 Seconds To Mars
Still Around --3OH!3
Kings and Queens --30 Seconds to Mars

Time to Share

Here's a rough version of a poem I wrote a few days ago. Enjoy.


The Battle for Hope and Promise

I woke up this morning a changed person.
I became full of hope and promise.
Those feelings sprang inside me,
Rushing through me like water through a stream.
Who is to say what you can’t accomplish?
To dash my dreams with a single bitter word.
I stand up so strong ready for a fight
To fight for what I believe in.
To fight for my own dreams.
So be ready to draw your sword
Because I’m now a soldier
A soldier for hope and promise.